Illusion (Sept 25, 03)

Last night, I watched “Vanilla Sky” at Momoe’s place till 2am. This was very rare for me as people around me know that I usually feel sleepy at around 11pm and sleep before midnight. And as you can guess, I must find something special about this movie which can keep me awake. I found this movie fascinating not because of the beautiful faces of Penelope and Tom Cruise. This movie recalls me the other 2 Cruise’s movies, namely, Minority Report and Eyes Wide Shut. Cruise’s attractiveness lies on his innocent and adventurous characters.

I don’t know if you have ever had this experience.
When I woke up and went to work this morning, I just can’t help to have the flash of the movie in my mind over and over. I feel like we live in such an illusion. And we can’t tell what’s true and what’s not. Then when I got to work, David sent me this NY Times articles telling how the Chinese version of “Living History” of Hillary Clinton being censored and edited to fit the political situation here. Having had this entire residue from “Vanilla Sky”, I suddenly feel that we all live in an illusion, being in and out of stories that are written by others. Everything is such an impression only! And so I told David, it’s like Monet’s painting… isn’t it romantic? All of a sudden I realized why Zhuangzi would put himself into the paradox of whether he transformed to be a butterfly or the butterfly transformed to be him. In the past, I always feel that he is insane, suffered from schizophrenia or similar kind of sickness. Now I must admit that I am a bit closer to his mind state, at least I start to “sense” and “experience” what he is talking about.